12/07/2006

after so long..i found myself here again wondering about what would happen now if i didn't make those mistakes and choices..it would've been a whole different world for me..completely opposite from what i have now..even though i do appreciate growing up and experiencing all these changes to get to where i am now..a part of me still want that something..a part of me still waits for that someone..that part of me still wants to be there..in a place where i don't belong..a place where everything was once all i had wanted..

my heart tells me yes..my mind says no..

what's the purpose of it all?..

I'm handing it all to you Jesus..you tell me..

Faith~Hope~Love

10/24/2006

oh my..it's really been a while since i updated xanga..well..everything is different from before now..work..school..family..my life took a 360 degree turn and it's still turning and spinning..things are blurred from where i stand..yet..my dream has never been this clear..

Faith~Hope~Love

4/6/2006

everything in my life is taking a shift to a new direction..bringing challenges and lessons for me to overcome and learn..at the same time..i'm experiencing the wonderful blessings from my powerful Father and the greatness of my Savior like never before.

Amazing Grace..my Beautiful Jesus

Faith~Hope~Love

3/21/2006

"Put me on trial, Lord, and cross-examine me Test my motives and affections." Psalm 26:2

For so long i've been afraid to say this prayer..i'm afraid that the trials of salvation will change the life that i have now..and i might disappoint Jesus with something i might do or say..

For so long i locked myself in a box..afraid to reach up, open the lid and let myself out..i'm afraid that once i climb out of the box..i might be disappointed from the world outside..and crawl right back to where i was..

For so long i lived with worries..afraid to let go and hand everything to Jesus..i'm afraid that if i losen my hold..the things i long for will slip right out of my hands..and i might be left with nothing..

For so long..too long..i lived the life of the world..a life without a purpose..a life full of selfishness and empty desires..

..i was a lost soul woundering around looking for a home..knocked over and fell on my face with wounds all over me..Till the day i encounted Jesus..He helped me up and carried me on His back..and He said to me.." My Child..I'm taking you Home to our Father..He will heal you of your pain and love you for eternity..Now..Give me Your Hands.."

Jesus..here i am..all of me..Now..Take me Home.

Faith~Hope~Love

3/20/2006

By God's grace and power..my life is taking a shift to a new direction..there will be great light at the end of  the tunnel..it's sure going to be awesome!

tmr..at 12:30pm..i might be getting the job i'v been wanting for 2 years..

saturday..at 4pm..i can't wait to see my dad..i'm shaking as i type..this will be a challenge for us..a turning point..after 5 years..i have faith in  the Lord that this time around..it's going to be different..all different.

The Purpose Driven Life.

Faith~Hope~Love